It's been a few months since I got back from my travels in Europe and I found this blog of mine dusting away in the limitless space that is the internet. Though my life here in Atlanta has been action packed with me working this summer and then being back in school, the memories and emotions came flooding back when I revisited this page. It made me realize that what I created was something I will forever cherish. There is something about penning down your thoughts, your feelings and your emotions, that make you feel ever so nostalgic that I have decided to actually use this virtual space to jot down my thoughts. I think I am going to change the name of the blog to, 'Travels, Trials and Triumphs.'
Being the first piece I am writing, I am not really sure what its going to be about. I am going to let it be the canvas for me to paint on, with the brush strokes of my brain and heart.
The last few months have been a roller coaster ride. There have been ups and there have been downs. But what I realized is that it is very difficult to keep an optimistic person down. I have always been one to move on. Things, peoples behaviour, rejections, dissapointments used to hardly bother me more than a day. I used to get on with life, with what I had going for me. I truly lived in the present. Didn't bother about the past, didn't think too much of the future. Enjoyed every moment, from the smallest of joys of waking up and dancing in the shower to bigger joys like getting an actual job and helping others out in their time of need.
One thing changed in the last few months. I became a little more human. I started to feel bad about people's actions and started doubting my actions. I wrestled with the idea that maybe I wasn't doing enough or maybe I was at fault for certain behaviours. It has taken me a while to realize it is but natural what I felt. But despite the constant confusion, I was still able to smile from day to day at the smallest of things and that is who I am. As humans we will continously face obstacles, moral dilemas and emotional riddles but the ability to still look out the window and enjoying the falling rain is what it's all about.
I don't have answers to many things at this point in my life but there are certain things I am more certain about than I was before. One of them being that 'Good always comes around.' You do good now, you will reap some benifit somewhere, somehow!
